It was a brisk cold morning on 11/11/2011 as I sat insensate at my desk dreading my nine hour shift as a car salesman at a Subaru dealership located in Albany, New York.  On any other morning I would have clocked in, sat down at my desk, made my sales calls and waited impatiently for the next potential customer to pull up in search of a new automobile.  About twenty minutes into my shift a car pulled into the dealership and I saw four grown men jump up out of their chairs, drop their donuts, hotdogs, popcorn and coffee before battling each other for the opportunity to greet this potential customer.

Except for me, I stayed at my desk and strapped in for a life changing moment.

In that very instance, something out of the ordinary happened; it was what I call my snap moment.  Even to this day, five years later it is still difficult for me to explain it in words.  The best way I can describe it, is that I had finally woken up or as I say; snapped out of it.  It felt like I had been sleep walking since the day I started working there and finally my eyes were open.  Almost as if someone were knocking on my chest from the inside and I at once began to listen.  It is how I came up with the tag line, snap out of it, live free.

Not even seconds later I called my brother and said, “Hey, do you want to quit your job and move somewhere near the beach?” His response, “Yea, let’s do it.”  Later that evening we jumped in the car and drove for the Canadian border.  It was the closest place that felt like the furthest from where we were.  Montreal, a primarily French speaking city turned out to be the perfect spot for me to collect my thoughts and reassure my spontaneous decision.  My mind was racing with excitement as I felt more alive than ever.  We only spent two nights out of the country before coming back with a firm decision to move down south to one of the most beautiful coastal cities in America – Charleston, South Carolina.

I spent almost four years in Charleston and in that time, I somehow managed to get myself right back to where I started.  After two years working a nine to five at a publishing company, I was again at my breaking point.  I felt suffocated, trapped and this time, my snap moment was nowhere to be found.  It was just me and my spreadsheets.  That is until one day I said, “Enough is enough.”  If I wasn’t going to be enlightened by some spontaneous moment of clarity then it was up to me to create a spark, and so I did.

On September 24, 2015 I set out on adventure around the world in search of one thing, inspiration.  Snap Free Life was created because I came to a point in my life where I was living like a robot on auto pilot.  I woke up to an annoying alarm, scarfed down my breakfast, drove to work battling traffic, sat at my cubicle for 9 hours doing a job that I had absolutely no passion for until I drove home stuck in rush hour, then forced myself to the gym until I finally made dinner around 8 PM while watching TV so I could decompress before going to bed just so that I could do it all over again.  Whew! I feel tired just talking about it.

I did this for more than 4 years which some would say is nothing compared to their 30 or 40 invested years but,

is it an investment or just a long time working for the weekend?

Even 24 hours is too many if you spend all of them unhappy.  Eventually I came to a point where I was about to lose it, go crazy or as I like to say, I was about to snap!  I knew it was time for a change and I also knew that nobody but myself was capable or responsible for getting myself out.

Instead of spiraling down into a deep state of depression or masking my problems with anti depressants or pretending that I loved my job or my current life situation for that matter, I decided to do something else.  I decided to listen to my heart; that inner voice that was neglected for many years while I let life just pass me by.  My inner voice was telling me to go and travel.

Now, at the time I just made excuses.  I was in a rut and didn’t know how to dig myself out.  The student loans, credit card bills, job security and any other excuse that you hear holding people back today from doing what they truly want to do, I had it.

But one morning I woke up and had a different plan.  I decided that I was going to stop analyzing everything so circumspectly and rather trust my intuition absolutely.  I’ve learned that if you analyze anything for too long you can always find a problem and justify an excuse in your head to give in and feed your fear.  I knew that I needed to make a choice.  Either snap out of it and live a life filled with excitement or keep running in circles until I eventually wake up an old man with nothing but a pocketful of excuses.  I’ve always told myself that I refuse to be the one saying,

“I should have done this or I wish that I would have done that”.

I had declared that day, I would live my life free of all of that.

We all have different paths in life and some will inevitably stumble and fall harder than others but the beauty of life is that we all have choices.  It doesn’t matter what hand you’re dealt in life just as long as your willing to play.  Every passing moment is another opportunity for you to answer your true calling.  Nobody but you can recognize these rare moments so when the next one comes along, don’t waste it.  Your snap moment could be today, it’s always your choice.

Snap out of it, live free!

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